OA or no OA.....that is the question

So I haven't had a lot of things to talk about recently; hence the lack of posts. I even started this one four or five days ago and just didn't have enough to write about to post it.

Last week was emotionally draining; more so for my mom and her family than for me personally. Grandma's wake was last Wednesday and her funeral was Thursday. The wake was, I have to be honest, really boring. It was long and the only people that I knew were my mom's high school friends and some people from our old church. The funeral was, surprisingly, very nice. It was a Catholic service, but it wasn't long or boring and the priest talked casually and even made a few jokes. My cousin Laura gave the eulogy and it was beautiful. The worst part of it for me was that throughout the entire service, all I could think about was dad, especially when we had to sing "How Great Thou Art" because I could just hear him singing it.

The happier part of last week was that we had a cookout on Saturday, partly as a way to unwind from the week and partly to celebrate Paul and Lisa being in town. Paul is my mom's younger brother and he lives in Texas, so we only get to see him every few years or so. (recently it has always been for funerals) They stayed at our house for the week, which was really nice. Normally, I don't like having guys in the house because I have to be extra careful about being covered up and wearing a bra, but at the same time, it was kind of nice to have some masculine energy in the house. Normally, all we have in the house is a ton of estrogen, what with it being only mom and me here.

This week has been pretty boring. I have made an effort to get back on my healthy eating plan, which is easier said than done, especially when we still had leftovers in the house. Mom went grocery shopping today though, so we're back to the normal food of the house. One interesting thing that did come up this week was that my therapist suggested that I should try out an OA (Overeaters Anonymous) meeting. I told her about my blog and about one of my recent posts "There are days when I feel like a recovering addict" and she said that it might be a good idea to just try it out. I'm not sure if I'm gonna do it though. I have a difficult time opening up to complete strangers. It took me long enough to feel comfortable talking to my therapist Amy, and even then there are times when I can tell that I'm not opening up completely. So the prospect of sitting in a room of people and telling them my darkest food related secrets just scares the crap out of me. I can just picture myself sitting there, arms folded, listening to everyone else and not saying a word. The only nice thing is that the meetings are free, so I wouldn't be wasting money if I went. I don't know. I'll still have to think about it.